I understand you perfectly 'cause I'm also in love with john, I love him very much and never met him or he will know because 15 years after I was born to die ... although I feel that not everything to me ... I feel with his music, when I see him smile is so beautiful ... I do not mind telling me crazy ... and although it's hard to fall in love with someone who died I never ashamed of it, and I feel happy when I listen, I think there is something after death, and when he died I think I will know.